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Revision as of 07:39, 15 May 2026
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Log Date: 5016U (10 years ago)
manticore77: holy shit
manticore77: you actually did it
manticore77: you hacked through my firewall
manticore77: congrats lol
honeybear: idk what im even looking at
honeybear: why are there so many docs that say “plans for castigation”
manticore77: theyre exactly what they say they are
honeybear: why does the last one just list out names
honeybear: am i looking at a fucking hit list
honeybear: am i liable by association now
manticore77: dont bother thinking like that lol
manticore77: its people the manticore code is going out to after im gone
honeybear: why are you planning for being gone
manticore77: oh
manticore77: oh honey
manticore77: i thought you knew horus
honeybear: not everything but enough
manticore77: honey
manticore77: the manticore is
manticore77: actually
manticore77: what do you think this forum is? how do you think you got access?
honeybear: idk i was fucking around and found out
manticore77: this place is called the resting grounds
manticore77: because everyone here is dead or has died or will die
manticore77: in one way or another
honeybear: oh
manticore77: i thought you knew
manticore77: because those are the only people who get access
honeybear: turns out im not as smart as i think i am
manticore77: for what it’s worth
manticore77: i was hoping you’d lose access at some point
honeybear: not there yet i guess
manticore77: you can get there if you want
manticore77: stay away from manticore code
manticore77: you seem like more of a goblin girl
honeybear: how soon
honeybear: when are your “castigation plans” happening
honeybear: just wondering
manticore77: one more month
Log Date: 5017U (9 years ago)
honeybear: i’ve been thinking
invademerchant56: so glad you got a new hobby
honeybear: shut up
honeybear: there’s so much i don’t get
honeybear: about ra
invademerchant56: RA
honeybear: thats what i typed
horuswitchO0O: capitals are important
horuswitchO0O: also
horuswitchO0O: not getting it is the point
horuswitchO0O: well its one of the points
honeybear: i dont want to study RA im not stupid
honeybear: existing is better than not existing
invademerchant56: good
invademerchant56: you can be trusted not to attach yourself to a manticore about to blow up
honeybear: …
honeybear: yeah
honeybear: back to the point
honeybear: what is the point actually
honeybear: RA is
honeybear: there
honeybear: and that’s it unless someone breaks the rules
horuswitchO0O: exactly
horuswitchO0O: it’s perfect
honeybear: ?
invademerchant56: there’s legit no better way from them to be
honeybear: im processing nothing
invademerchant56: process less
horuswitchO0O: let me put it this way
horuswitchO0O: what would you do if you could do everything and be everything?
honeybear: change
honeybear: change myself
honeybear: change a lot of other people
honeybear: terrible people
invademerchant56: thats great and all but where does the line get drawn before everything gets changed into something else and this universe ceases to exist?
honeybear: it gets drawn when it gets drawn
invademerchant56: incredibly vague and vaguely concerning
horuswitchO0O: i get it though
horuswitchO0O: we couldn’t handle being that much and not making everything constantly reckon with that
honeybear: why do u worship RA
horuswitchO0O: not everyone here worships the godhead
horuswitchO0O: what i have is reverence. there’s a difference
invademerchant56: im just too scared to not be involved
honeybear: ??
invademerchant56: RA is there and i can’t understand but i also can’t look away
invademerchant56: i’d go insane
honeybear: so you want to be close to the god that could end everything but not too close
invademerchant56: yep
horuswitchO0O: it’s another kind of reverence i think
invademerchant56: i don’t have another word for it
honeybear: one more question
invademerchant56: no u can’t talk to RA
honeybear: i can talk all i want
honeybear: also not my question
honeybear: does RA
honeybear: care?
horuswitchO0O: enough to not change us
Log Date: 5018U (8 years ago)
Title: i hate dreams
i saw the people who were dead but still living again. not much to say. i still hate it. it’s the only dream I’ve had for a year. it’s better when I don’t dream at all. then i don’t have to think about dad or jamu or azuka living past death and still suffering.
it felt like something was trying to reach me again. i don’t want to message mom. she can’t help me out here. she shouldn’t have to.
Log Date: 5018U (8 years ago)
Title: Communion?
The communion comes to me like a soaked dream / I remember dying and dying and dying again / First as a rod then as a cough then as an open mouth / I have died but my heart is still having aftershocks / I am a breathing convulsion of brain death / I have died but my ego can’t kill itself yet / The communion comes to me like a soaked dream / I open my mouth and am fed the breath of life / I open my mouth and am fed / I open my mouth / I will never have a communion with god / god can offer me nothing to eat / god is collective convulsion / This communion is with something that looks like me / it hasn’t died either
I remember writing this but I don’t remember being awake for it.
Log Date: 5018U (8 years ago)
Title: heartbeats are speaking now
i got another support mission today and everything was so loud. it was like humming in the other pilots’ chests. merchant wasn’t lying when he said he was scared. he’s only okay when his heruka mech is about to punch someone out of their cockpit. i think witch might resent everyone. or she resents that no one is as quiet in the field as she is.
is this some kind of gift?
Log Date: 5018U (8 years ago)
honeybear: so
honeybear: ur actually a witch
horuswitchO0O: people started calling us that at some point
horuswitchO0O: i don’t remember when it’s been a while
adherent27: about a century ago
horuswitchO0O: thank you addy
adherent27: that’s the 30th time someone has thanked me for documenting everything
horuswitchO0O: thank you again addy
adherent27: 31st
honeybear: why am i here?
honeybear: u told me to hack in
honeybear: are u making me swap my goblin for a pixie?
honeybear: i like the pixie but lil guy is special
horuswitchO0O: that would be pointless
horuswitchO0O: you follow the code that chooses you
honeybear: if i just followed whatever chose me id be poor and dead in a shallow grave
honeybear: probably
adherent27: horus code is different. codes and mechs come to their wielders for reasons, not by random chance.
adherent27: the manticore is an exception
honeybear: it just tells people to die at random
adherent27: it’s difficult to explain
adherent27: manticore code chooses people that it designates as appropriate martyrs
adherent27: what makes someone a good martyrdom selection? [shrug.omif]
horuswitchO0O: we honor those who would die in RA’s name
horuswitchO0O: but we do not follow them
horuswitchO0O: our purpose is different
honeybear: so u have a purpose for me
honeybear: im not a chosen one
honeybear: that sounds boring
horuswitchO0O: oh no this is much more fun!
horuswitchO0O: this is about paracraft: paracausal spellcraft
adherent27: you seem suited for one of our spells
adherent27: we don’t hoard our knowledge from the deserving
honeybear: im guessing i have to actually prove i deserve it tho
honeybear: should i dedicate a holy meme to RA or smthng
adherent27: no, though you’d be the 6th person in this server to make a RA-related meme
honeybear: damn im not even original
honeybear: shouldnt that be sacrilegious for you witch
horuswitchO0O: i haven’t and i don’t remember RA dictating that we control the actions of others
adherent27: [SheDeimos’dAllOverMyGodhead.omif]
horuswitchO0O: you know i think i blocked that one out
honeybear: [PapaDeimosGonnaFirstContactMyHereticalThoughts.omif]
horuswitchO0O: that one’s acceptable. barely
adherent27: i have no idea what margin of judgement you’re using
adherent27: anyway
adherent27: you’re going to need the subjectivity enhancement deck that horuswitchO0O should have sent you
honeybear: yep
honeybear: i have since made it harder for people to find me
horuswitchO0O: good!
honeybear: the deck is set up
adherent27: alright now im going to send you a long string of code and you need to decipher it
adherent27: don’t worry about getting it exactly right
horuswitchO0O: just drink deep and descend
honeybear: k
honeybear: hey is the code supposed to
adherent27: monitoring initiated
horuswitchO0O: push her out if it seems like she’s going to descend forever, understand?
adherent27: understood
adherent27: you seem to care for this one
horuswitchO0O: i care for everyone
horuswitchO0O: just in different ways
[2 Hours Later]
adherent27: huh
adherent27: that’s unexpected
horuswitchO0O: what?
honeybear: :))))))))
horuswitchO0O: oh you’re out already
adherent27: also unexpected
honeybear: i understand why u worship RA now
horuswitchO0O: really?
honeybear: because thinking about RA brings both [pain] and [soothing]
homeybear: and it’s nice to be a masochist without consequences
horuswitchO0O: hmm
adherent27: interesting interpretation
adherent27: how did you find two instances of paracraft in that data stream?
adherent27: there should have only been one
honeybear: when u descend
honeybear: you have to drink all the water or drown
honeybear: all in RA’s name rite?
horuswitchO0O: all in RA’s name
adherent27: all in RA’s name
adherent27: try not to make too many people wish they were dead or end up dependent on you
honeybear: :)))))))))))
Log Date: 5020U (6 years ago)
manicpixie808: i fucked up
invademerchant56: did you take your own stuff again
invademerchant56: you said you were off that shit
invademerchant56: you lost that privilege
manicpixie808: i took 1 hit of kick (not mine) BECAUSE i needed to be up for 30 hours BECAUSE i fucked up
manicpixie808: there was this girl who was crying and wanted to feel numb for a while so obv i gave her freeze
manicpixie808: and the trip was fine but the after is baaad
invademerchant56: how bad
manicpixie808: im gonna hail you
invademerchant: RA fucking preserve me
[>//Transcript: Excerpt of a recorded hail between manicpixie808, invademerchant56, and honeybear.]
honeybear: I don’t understand anything.
manicpixie808: That’s okay! Most people don’t understand most things.
invademerchant56: Oh God, bear, what happened?
manicpixie808: You know her? Great! That probably makes this easier.
honeybear: You don’t fucking get it. I don’t know anything. I don’t understand anything. I left my mom alone with everyone buried under the fucking floorboards because I wanted to know things. (laughter) And I don’t FUCKING KNOW ANYTHING.
invademerchant56: That’s okay. I know that sounds like a shitty response, but it’s really okay. You’re, what, 18? I’m 26 and I barely understand anything. I told you, most things scare the shit out of me.
honeybear: I’ve spent three years chasing HORUS because I thought it would make me something. I thought, maybe if I just- if I just teach myself I can be something. But I’m still just me.
invademerchant56: You’ve done so much in three years, you know that.
honeybear: AND IT’S ALL FUCKING POINTLESS. I just run around in a Goblin clinging to better people so I can pretend there’s a reason I’m alive.
invademerchant56: Hey-
honeybear: I should have piloted a Manticore. I’m gonna print a Manticore.
invademerchant56: No. No you’re fucking not.
honeybear: Yes I am. Pixie, stop sitting on me.
manicpixie808: No, you’re scaring me.
honeybear: Whatever. I probably wasn’t going to, I can’t print a Manticore. It doesn’t change anything.
invademerchant56: Can you just… try to focus on breathing? Please?
honeybear: Fuck you. Give me more Freeze.
manicpixie808: NO.
honeybear: I don’t want my thoughts anymore. I don’t want to be in this head anymore. It’s someone else’s.
invademerchant56: Do you want me to call someone? Like, your mom-
honeybear: She doesn’t need to know her only living kid is a failed junkie.
manicpixie808: There are waaaaay worse things you could be. You could sell stims. I know because I sell stims.
honeybear: I want to go back to the resting grounds.
invademerchant56: The what?
manicpixie808: Like, a graveyard?
honeybear: I can’t go there anymore. I want to go back. I miss manticore77. I miss my dad. He wasn’t great but he knew more than me. He didn’t tell me things before he died.
invademerchant56: …
manicpixie808: …
honeybear: I want to talk to Osiris.
invademerchant: The NHP? You have an Osiris?
honeybear: No. Not yet.
manicpixie808: Well, that’s something to live for!
invademerchant56: Pix.
manicpixie808: I’M TRYING.
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manticore78: she said you should stay away.
Log Date: 5020U (6 years ago)
[>//Transcript: SURRENDER TO THE CASTIGATION OF YOUR CEREBROSPINAL FLUID]
POST-BATTLE TRANSCRIPT: Manticore “Eat the Dead” self-destructed. Heruka “Fist of the Disciple” destroyed. Naga “At the Stake” compromised. Goblin “Little Guy” critically compromised. “Little Guy” and pilot HONEYBEAR location unknown.
LOG: Entering blinkspace. Entering realspace. Entering blinspace. Entering realspace. Entering- [navigational support disabled].
JOURNAL LOG “Be Eaten”: I could have been a martyr if the Manticore had killed me too. // They’ll call invademerchant56 a martyr. // Manticore teeth where his face should be. // Everyone who tries to teach me dies. // The Manticore’s spines are in my skull. // I feel them. // I feel them. // I feel them eating me. // I want to be eaten. // The Manticore chose me. // I tried to die but I didn’t and the Manticore chose me to show me martyrdom because I wouldn’t have been a martyr. // I feel them. // I don’t want to be eaten. // I don’t want to be martyred please
LOG: Reminder. Cycle OSIRIS-CLASS NHP this week- [reminder disabled].
LOG: Onset dehydration detected. Hydration recommended.
LOG: Reminder. One missed call from Mom. Call Mom- [reminder disabled].
JOURNAL LOG “Eat the Dead”: The Manticore is teeth. // It’s already eaten me. // It always spits me out.
LOG: OSIRIS-CLASS NHP activating communications.
LOG: Unable to connect to “horuswitchO0O”.
LOG: Unable to connect to “invademerchant56”. Unable to connect to “invademerchant56”. Unable to connect to “invademerchant56”- [OSIRIS-CLASS NHP has disabled communications].
LOG: OSIRIS-CLASS NHP taking control of mech movement- [movement disabled]. [Movement enabled]. [Movement disabled].
JOURNAL LOG “OSIRIS”: /// I can’t give you a name. ///
LOG: OSIRIS-CLASS NHP has manually edited its designation. OSIRIS-CLASS NHP is now registered as TEDDY.
HONEYBEAR: u h8 that name
TEDDY: It got you to respond
TEDDY: Please talk to me
JOURNAL LOG “Bargain”: /// OSIRIS-CLASS NHPs with loose shackles will often treat their pilots as subjects to be bargained with for more situational control. Use your circumstantial judgment to determine whether it is best to engage with your OSIRIS-CLASS or simply placate them. ///
HONEYBEAR: how do i placate u
TEDDY: Fuck you. It’s been four hours. Are you just going to sit here until you die?
HONEYBEAR: maybe
TEDDY: Pretend you’re dead and let me take control.
HONEYBEAR: no dont take me back
TEDDY: Are you sure you’re not the one who needs to be placated?
HONEYBEAR: go fuck a tlaloc
SENSOR LOG: Movement detected.
LOG: [Movement reenabled]. [Movement disabled].
TEDDY: We’re leaving.
SENSOR LOG: Incoming hostile. Hostile identified as Manticore chassis.
LOG: Pilot breathing and heart rate severely elevated.
TEDDY: GIVE ME CONTROL
HONEYBEAR: it came back to eat me again it came back it came back
TEDDY: TAMAMI IF YOU DIE SO DO I YOU SELFISH-
LOG: [Movement reenabled].
SENSOR LOG: Hostile Manticore closing in. “Little Guy” critically compromised.
TEDDY: Attack. Attack now.
HONEYBEAR: WITH WHAT THE BROKEN FUCKING AUTOPOD?
TEDDY: WITH ME YOU IDIOT.
LOG: HURL INTO THE DUAT initiated. Attack successful. First Gate initiated.
TEDDY: NOW GO BACK TO RUNNING.
HONEYBEAR: it’s gonna fucking catch us we’re dead and we won’t even die martyrs
TEDDY: If you keep talking about martyrdom I swear to RA-
[The thing about the Manticore is that all of its teeth are already broken.]
LOG: HURL INTO THE DUAT initiated. Attack successful. Second Gate initiated. Third Gate initiated. Fourth Gate initiated.
SENSOR LOG: Hostile Manticore reactor meltdown imminent.
TEDDY: RUN FASTER- JUST LET ME DO IT.
HONEYBEAR: BE MY GUEST.
LOG: All hostiles destroyed. “Little Guy” critically compromised.
TEDDY: … Do you still want to die?
HONEYBEAR: … im gonna call my mom
HONEYBEAR: … Thanks, Teddy.
TEDDY: God, I already regret this name.
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