TO DEVOUR THE RAWNESS OF THE SELF
by ??? for Totec Valentina Suarez, Callsign: Corona
Y o u Wonder W h y I Laugh
do you also wonder why
the rain laughs
at a dead plant
still weighed down
by water?
it doesn’t.
because the rain
can’t laugh.
You WONDER why i LAUGH
but you never ask
if you should be, too.
IlaughbecauseIlaughbecauseIlaugh
because
of your fingers on the back of your neck
whispering to your skin
that your veins aren’t in petri dishes
that your sweat isn’t a seasoning
that your flesh won’t be peeled the way a grape on the ground
pops
yOU wONDER wHY i lAUGH
and think you have a question I can’t answer:
w h y watch w h e n the a x e falls?? ? ? ?
i am watching
becauseIwatchbecauseIlaughbecauseIwatch
because
why should i not know where the blood—
sweet sweet red sweat slurring through
all these clumsy arteries—
why should i not know
where the blood came from? ? ? ??
where did the blood come from?
would you tell me if they stuck their neck out
like a little lamb?
would you tell me if they tried to count
the seconds [one two take the blade three four make it wet]?
would you tell me if they
wanted this?
no
SO I MUST WITNESS
There's... not much to say about this one, is there? - Symphony
No. I suppose not. - Sonata
I don't like this one, sister. - Symphony
No one does. - Sonata